WhiteCarrotCake

i think ayu's and stefanie sun's songs depict exactly how im feeling now.

last year i left in a rush, and this year it seems to be similar situation.

or perhaps no matter how much time is given to me, it'll never be enough. As I'm packing my luggage right now, i have no wish to leave. I held back my tears as I was eating with Papa just now. I dont know why it just hurts me so much that Im gonna leave him for half a year again. How could I bear to?

I know it's my decision, and I've to take responsibility for my decision but I just wonder if I made the right decision. but like what sweetie said, be it good or bad, it's still an experience, that can't be bought and is once in a life time.

To be honest, I'm a little scared. Scared to live alone, in an unfamiliar environment, to work overseas, to be in a scheming society.

And I further challenged myself by booking the air tickets to Harbin and Beijing. Alone. To Harbin would probably be a 60 degree celsius change. I dont know if I can handle the cold, the coldest I've been was only -10. But no matter what,

I made the decision, and I'll face it.