WhiteCarrotCake

我觉得我孤僻的性格越来越严重。

比如说我让自己很忙so我不必meet up with friends for my birthday. 一直有朋友问我几时有空而我都说no. 其时我也真的没空啦。因为去年去丹麦之前忙着和不同的朋友见面，搞得自己很累。也没时间好好陪家人和给自己个人空间。所以这次我什么人都不想见，只想快点搞好签证和飞机票。所以nancy你算是稀有privilege few! Lol! 也因如此、今年的生日礼物因该只有一份。但我很ok的，人越大也对生日没什么兴趣，连礼物也bochap.  Maybe 现在有能力买想要的东西。

好期待赶快再去巴黎！我有好多好多包包想买！天堂，那是天堂！

Oh btw I'm the biggest joke ever. I went to my friend's bday and forgot about the present! Luckily I haven't board the bus!

And hahaha I told one of my friend I'm too busy to celebrate my birthday and he wAs like !!! WTF got such thing?! I'm such a classic.

P.S. On the other note, I am indeed very very touched when I saw bear's effort to coordinate with others for a farewell for me.

P.SII I decided to be bitchy and bitch on that B girl.

This bitch blocked YL and I on facebook (except our other common friend, the 4 of us were in the same clique in year 1 though). I wasn't angry at all when I found out, because I was mean to her in year 1. Well not really mean but just showing my dislike towards her openly. That's me. I don't like to be hypocrite or hide any true feelings. But when I told YL about me being blocked, she found herself as well, and she was damn pissed.

But I was very angry when she kept commenting on my post. Like WTF?! Block me and then comment on my status or even my conversation with my friends? Even retarded "hahaha" she also wrote.

Fine, hypocrite.

Worse is when she knew she had me as her only friend at this birthday party, she suddenly SMSed me non stop asking retarded questions like 'what are you wearing", "what uuuuuuuuuu buying for her" etc. Ok fine, I'm being biased, these aren't really retarded questions. But I said so because for a 22 years old undergraduate to spell words like euuuuuuuu, I think that's very retarded. And what irks me most is she can send consecutive SMSes within a minute asking tons of retarded questions. Can't she do it on in 1? And some SMSes weren't even a question. They were simply things like "hahha dont know wat to wear..."

You think I care?!

And then on the day of the party I found out that she unblocked me. I was angry more than pleased. I mean come on, I knew you started talking/ SMSing me because you wanted to patch up our relationship so that you won't feel awkward going to the party alone. But hey, <span style="font-weight:bold;"></span>IF YOU DECIDED TO BLOCK ME, THEN DON'T COMMENT ON MY STATUS OR EVEN TALK TO ME ON FACEBOOK. AND IF YOU DECIDED TO BLOCK ME, JUST STICK WITH YOUR BLOODY DECISION AND DON'T UNBLOCK ME.

Asshole.

What makes her more ass than an asshole is when she had the audacity to ask me for the birthday girl's contact no., claiming that she lost it. HUH I always wonder how can anyone lose anyone's no. except for the simple fact the mobile was stolen. Just admit that you deleted her no. because you deemed she's unworthy of you remembering her or cherishing the friendship. I didn't feel like replying B, because once again I find it (the SMS) and her retarded. Oh wait, retarded seems to be a too kind word for her. Because for a facebook addict like her, I'm sure she won't miss the fb birthday event invite, which clearly states the birthday girl & bf's mobile no.

Can't you get her no. there and instead of asking me? Because every time I reply to your SMS in a nice manner I felt so hypocrite. On the day of the party B asked me for her no. I gave B, thinking she wanted to contact bday girl over some issues.

Only when I reached the party, the host told me B wasn't coming cause she had a fever. I was like WTF. You asked me for no. but can't you also, out of politeness, inform me that you aren't going?

I can only think of 1 reason. You faker. You knew I wasn't going to talk to you at the party, and since I told you I knew some of her friends and her bf, you are afraid that you will be alone. So you simply no show.

I have absolute zero respect for you. I can't believe how fake you are. Lying through your bloody sinister eyes. To think I always give you the benefit of doubt, and empathize you thinking "oh you don't have a mother. Life must be hard on you".

But you just made me lost all the faith, respect and any little remaining trust I had on you.

It's over, I ain't gonna even smile or say hello to you if I ever see you again.

我觉得我孤僻的性格越来越严重。

比如说我让自己很忙so我不必meet up with friends for my birthday. 一直有朋友问我几时有空而我都说no. 其时我也真的没空啦。因为去年去丹麦之前忙着和不同的朋友见面，搞得自己很累。也没时间好好陪家人和给自己个人空间。所以这次我什么人都不想见，只想快点搞好签证和飞机票。所以nancy你算是稀有privilege few! Lol! 也因如此、今年的生日礼物因该只有一份。但我很ok的，人越大也对生日没什么兴趣，连礼物也bochap.  Maybe 现在有能力买想要的东西。

好期待赶快再去巴黎！我有好多好多包包想买！天堂，那是天堂！

Oh btw I'm the biggest joke ever. I went to my friend's bday and forgot about the present! Luckily I haven't board the bus!

And hahaha I told one of my friend I'm too busy to celebrate my birthday and he was like !!! WTF got such thing?! I'm such a classic joke.

On the other note, I am indeed very very touched when I saw bear's effort to coordinate with others for a farewell for me.

Okay as mentioned in blogspot (which I just shifted over), my friend's (call her J) 21st party was a little dramatic for her. American high school ala gossip girl. I am really really disappointed in this friend, B. So disappointed that I started to wonder where has the good humanity gone to?

If the best things that happened in NTU were

1. I made wonderful friends like yanli, miiko, ximin, justin, matthias
2. Exchange to DTU

then I supposed the worse thing was that I met this friend B.  B was in my clique during year 1. But she subsequently left because I supposed she sensed our displeasure towards her. Not that we are mean girls and not that I'm trying to defend ourselves, but she can be really hypocrite and do backstabbing things like stealing my friend's idea in a project.

But what's past is passed and being a forgiving and forgetful person, I cant really remember what she did to us. So every time I see her I'll still say hello to her in a smiley face.

Well, actually I didn't want to say this. But I guess she really tested my limit.

Recently, I found out that B blocked YL and I on facebook (except miiko, the 4 of us were in the same clique in year 1 though). I wasn't angry at all when I found out, because I wasn't very nice to her in year 1. Well not really mean but just showing my dislike towards her openly. That's me. I don't like to be hypocrite or hide any true feelings. But when I told YL about me being blocked, she found herself as well, and she was damn pissed.

But I was very angry when she kept commenting on my post after she blocked me. Like WTF?! Blocked me and then comment on my status or even my conversation with my friends?  She could wrote a "hahaha" comment just like that.

Fine, hypocrite.

Worse is when she knew she had me as her only friend at this J's birthday party, she suddenly SMSed me non stop asking retarded questions like 'what are you wearing", "what uuuuuuuuuu buying for her" etc. Ok fine, I'm being biased, these aren't really retarded questions. But I said so because for a 22 years old undergraduate to spell words like "euuuuuuuu" instead of "you", I think that's very retarded. And what irks me most is she can send consecutive SMSes within a minute asking tons of retarded questions. Can't she do it all in 1? And some SMSes weren't even a question. They were simply things like "hahha dont know wat to wear..."

You think I care?!

And then on the day of the party I found out that she unblocked me. I was angry more than pleased. I mean come on, I knew you started talking/ SMSing me because you wanted to patch up our relationship so that you won't feel awkward going to the party alone. But hey, IF YOU DECIDED TO BLOCK ME, THEN DON'T COMMENT ON MY STATUS OR EVEN TALK TO ME ON FACEBOOK. AND IF YOU DECIDED TO BLOCK ME, JUST STICK WITH YOUR BLOODY DECISION AND DON'T UNBLOCK ME.

Asshole.

What makes her more ass than an asshole is when she had the audacity to ask me for the birthday girl's contact no., claiming that she lost it. HUH I always wonder how can anyone lose anyone's no. except for the simple fact the mobile was stolen. Just admit that you deleted her no. because you deemed she's unworthy of you remembering her or cherishing the friendship. I didn't feel like replying B, because once again I find it (the SMS) and her retarded. Oh wait, retarded seems to be a too kind word for her. Because for a facebook addict like her, I'm sure she won't miss the fb birthday event invite, which clearly states the birthday girl & bf's mobile no.

Can't you get her no. there and instead of asking me? Because every time I reply to your SMS in a nice manner I felt so hypocrite. Yet I don't want to sound mean nor harsh. On the day of the party B asked me for her no.

I gave B, thinking she wanted to contact bday girl over some issues.

Only when I reached the party, the host told me B wasn't coming cause she had a fever. I was like WTF. You asked me for no. to inform the host that you aren't going, but can't you also, out of politeness, inform me since you are SMSing me?

I can only think of 1 reason. You faker. You knew I wasn't going to talk to you at the party, and since I told you I knew some of her friends and her bf, you are afraid that you will be alone. So you simply put on a no show. Fever on the party? How timely? I would have trusted you, if this wasn't the 99999999999999999th times.

I have absolute zero respect for you now. I can't believe how fake you are. Lying through your bloody sinister eyes & teeth. To think I always gave you the benefit of doubt, and empathized you thinking "oh you don't have a mother. Life must be hard on you".

But you just made me lost all the faith, respect and any little remaining trust I had on you.

It's over, I ain't gonna even smile or say hello to you if I ever see you again.

Merry Christmas everyone! I hope it's a blessed one, and have a happy upcoming year!